Finding my purpose.
Published 9/13/2013 • Updated 1/25/2020
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One thing I am not very good at is “Saying No.”
I get really excited about different opportunities that I am presented and sort of shove my stress level aside and accept offer after offer fearlessly. My current workload is absolutely over my head right now. I am almost at the point where I am managing so many different projects I can’t sleep. It’s my own fault, though and I am learning a lot about myself as I pursue my career as a young entrepreneur.
A month ago, I went down to part time at Anytime Fitness (20 hours a week), to open up more time in my schedule to put towards my blog and freelance clients. With the excitement behind that move, I added a variety of different freelance projects to my workload. I’ll give you a break down of all of the projects I am working on right now. I’ll mark new next to it if it is fairly recent.
Current Workload
- Anytime Fitness: (20 hours/week)
- Designer Whey: 4 Recipes/Month (3 hours/week)
- Anytime Health: 3 Recipes/Month (2 hours/week)
- Fitfluential Instagram: (5 hours/week) *new*
- Yoga Sculpt Corepower: At least 3 classes/week (6 hours/week..more if I sub)
- Yoga Sculpt Hockey Team: 2 Classes/week (3 hours/week) *new*
- Corepower Management: (8 hours/week) *new*
- Fit Foodie Finds Recipe Creation/Blogging/Social Media: (15-25 hours/week)
- TOTAL/Week: 62-72 hours/week
I didn’t have a single day off last week nor do I have one this week- and again that is my own fault. Sunday was a bit of a mess. I worked all day at Corepower (this shift is new to my schedule) and came home and just exploded with tears. It had nothing to do with Corepower…it was 100% built up stress that finally erupted after a long week. I’m not much of a cryer, but when I do it brings me back to my eating disorder times when I was suffering from sever depression. It freaks me out. I love every single project I am currently working on, but I am so overly busy that these amazing opportunities are actually bringing some negative energy to my life.
This post ins’t suppose to be about me complaining about how stressed I am, rather helping me write it all down and evaluate because something needs to change. Whether it’s stepping down from something or managing my time better. I have some amazing mentors that are part of my life (Steph, Blake, Shannon, and Angela!) and each and every one of them has given me the exact same advice.
Yesterday I met with Stephanie over coffee, and she is SO good at coaching me about this situation. One thing she suggested was to really think about what my purpose is. Why am I doing what I am doing? Once I figure that out, I can start filtering opportunities through that and saying no should be rather simple.
So. That is where I am right now in my career. Still trying to figure out what my purpose is. Thank you for being an ear this morning 🙂
I am off to enjoy a beautiful day with Lauren from Me and the Mountains and my girlfriend B riding bikes and shopping in Uptown. Tonight I have my first cocktail event as part of the Healthy Living Summit and all day tomorrow I will be downtown Minneapolis at the conference. I’ll be taking a break this weekend from blogging…but definitely follow my happenings on Instagram!
I loved getting the chance to meet you at HLS (and clearly I’m behind on my blog reading). You’re definitely busy busy busy but sometimes it’s nice to know that everyone else doesn’t have it all together. And while that may sound weird, I mean that in the best way possible. Sometimes it’s hard to watch other people’s lives (whether through a blog, other forms of social media or even in real-life) and think they have it all figured out. I often feel like I’m the only person who is running around trying to find my place, my purpose and get my head on straight so I can keep moving forward. It’s always nice to know you’re not alone. You’re so talented and going to do big things, but make sure you give yourself time to relax too!